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i have recently come to the realization that i lived a pretty pampered life. i was by no means rich growing up but my parents gave me everything i ever wanted. even once i got a job when i was older i had no real financial responsibilities. they paid for everything. i never had chores. and when i did i didn’t do them anyway. i didn’t really have “rules” i had guidelines more or less. i.e. don’t drink, but if you do we’ll come get you. i’m not saying i had a super fantastic life, but it was good. looking back, i regret it though. i wish i would’ve had more structure. more bounderies. i never did anything “bad” really i didn’t drink until i was 20 years and 10 months old. never did drugs. only ever had one puff on a cigarette. only been so wasted that i blacked out and lost a day once (that was enough for me). i’ve only had sex with one guy. so i turned out alright. but i wish i had something to show for myself. i’m lazy. i have no extracurriculars. i wish i had learned the value of a dollar earlier on in life. i’m not saying my parents didn’t do a good job with me, i just wish they had prepared me better for the real world. but i think they did good by me. i got through college a semester early (which is one of my proudest accomplishments), i have a very good work ethic (i know that sounds contradictory but it’s true), i’m a well rounded adult now.